my ministry....

It has been such a long time since I write anything here…well, for those who know me, u will know I am..ahem…

Anyway, much has happened in this past 6 months. I really wonder where and how time flies. I was still a youth leader in my last posting but now, I am no longer in the youth ministry. Do I miss it? Yea of course.. I have been serving here ever since.. some of them have even grown up and become my good friends.. I love you all :P

I can still remember the time I was asked to help up in the youth ministry.. I was thinking, crazy lah…what is there for me to talk to the youth… they will be bored with me and I will definitely be bored talking to them.. but in obedience to the leadership, I just availed myself… and with much prayer asking God to give me the passion to love the youth, I slowly began to fit in to this ministry.

Honestly leaving this ministry is the hardest decision for me to make but I believe that there is a season for everything. I may still love to be involved with youth ministry but I believe God has a better plan for me. Who knows, He may call me again ;)

Year 2008...choir singing in leisure mall, Kids’ Kingdom, MCA Christmas gathering and hotels..enjoyed all the practices. And of course, youth camp. It was a great camp but also the saddest camp for me. 2008 sort of ended sadly but I was expectant too. I believe something exciting is in store for me, for I have a great Father who love me so so much:D

Initially I was kind of lost, not having to serve anymore...oops..I do help out in Kids' Kingdom, so cant say I'm not serving...(I was actually still deciding, looking around but somehow I was put on duty by Rosalind..talk about fast worker); but it was very different...suddenly I dont have any cgs to attend, no more worship practices, no more meetings and no more spam emails...and whenever I see my ex-fella youth leaders being busy, I kinda miss my old life...but then again, life still moves on.

Kids' Kingdom...well, it's new to me, working with children. Not that I have no experience with children...I have been helping my mom taking care of my nieces, nephews since I'm 8 and now with all my grandnieces and grandnephews...oooo I just love them all, they are all adorable and cute :P.

Anyway taking care of family's children and other children is different. Sorry Lord, I cant love them as much as I should but I'm learning. One of the encouragement I get is when one of my students telling me she dont want to join other class coz I am not there...so sweet of her.

Yet, I still dont have the sense of peace that this is where He wants me to be. The only thing I can do is wait...well, patience is never one of my virtue tho.

Anyway the wait was not that long...I finally joined the worship team. It was a struggle initially, as I also want to continue taking up my Hebrew Language class which clashes with the worship practice. On one hand I want to learn Hebrew, on the other hand I want to serve in worship. Well, I have made my choice and I am glad about it. I dont know what is in store for me, but I believe in my God, He will take care of me and leads me to the green pastures.

And of yes, I will be signing up for the choirs and also shall avail myself to help in the weekly clinic..doing what, I have no idea but whatever abilities that God has given to me, I just want to offer it back to Him.

Emptiness!

Emptiness!

like a hole burning in my heart

nobody knows

nobody cares

in a crowded room

surrounded by many

yet none really matters

people talking, sound everywhere

yet drowned by the internal crying

that no one would ever know

who can understand

whom can i tell

it's my own making

my own blunder

regrets is something i hate

yet regret is haunting me

everything seems ok

the truth, only He knows

I wish I could turn back the clock
Bring the wheels of time to stop
Back to the days

When life was so much better

i wana be happy

i wana be true

no pretense and juz be real

emptiness is a feeling

emptiness is a disease

happiness is nothing but a feeling

Joy is wat i want

Joy is what i seek

Help me Lord to find true joy

Help me Lord to guard my heart and mind

With Your peace that surpasses all understanding.

I shall find rest

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Phil 4:7)

PICTIONARY!!!

yay...pictionary is fun :P

thanks to daniel, christine n cherie... and joel oso lah..since he's the provider of the Pictionary, we had an enjoyable night which lasted not only in a face to face game but online as well :P

gosh i am soooo tired now.. been sleeping after 3am almost everyday...kena repent.

anyway have attached some of the more 'interesting drawings' here..hmm, wonder if u can guess wat tat's XD

these are from christine :

vacuum (looks more like wall-e) , machine gun (seems x-rated at first) , steam (took us ages to guess)

me and cherie:

nerd...juz by drawing the head w hair, daniel edi can guess, wonder how tho?? the glasses were added on by chrissy

turban...by racist cherie :P

and these are the from daniel : his masterpieces make us laf the most..thanks mr yellow yellow dirty fellow

dun recall wat it was but tis how dan draw a human face..
china town.. chicken and noodles at the side w some chinese scribbling (it's his surname..guess it's de onli chinese he knows)
dove!! beautiful onot? haha
can u guess wat's the odd shape behind de lidi man...suppose to be a chair wo..answer to his drawing is lie detector..dun see the connection

loves tis 3 pictures: 1st one is smell, 2nd onli cherie can guess juz by looking..geng. it's rabbit..honestly me and christine cant see the resemblance at all and the 3rd wan, rotfl
daniel : it's the thing to put there (pointing at the backside of the lidi man)..after much confusion and lafter, we got the answer it's toilet paper!!

and lastly, tis my favourite.... if u can guess tis, milo ais on me :P

Irresponsible D&D

Went to Jaya One for lunch yday. The car park was super full and i cant find a carpark. As i came to a crossroad, i wanted to drive past but rite in front was a myvi slowly driving thru as well. I then saw it stopping...so naturally i continue to drive on...but he suddenly start moving so i immediately press my 'jarang use' honk and HONKED....and then BAM!! He drove straight to my car!! :(

I was very angry, got out of my car, getting ready for a negotiation session...and guess wat??? He cant talk! not onli tat he cant hear oso!!! A real D&D!!! I was caught unprepared... How to negotiate w someone like tat?

He asked me for pen so we negotiated thru writing... Actually i kind of suspect tat he's not deaf nor dumb..firstly he didnt do much sign language...2ndly he can write real well...How he learn to write if he's dumb and deaf??

I did question him how he can drive if he cant hear... I wonder if it is legal for a deaf person to get driving license...it would be dangerous. Imagine if someone wana gif u cautionary honk and u cant hear it.

Anyway, he offered to pay me w all his has then, which was onli RM70 and I am to let him know the cost of the damage. Initially I only take RM50 but he insisted on me taking another RM10 so I finally took RM60 from him. Whether he's a fake onot, i cant and wont do much. Nowadays it's dangerous to go for any type of negotiations..and it's only material lost..if he pays up, good....if not, God will provide!

So after work, I sent my car to workshop and was told I need to pay RM400 to fix the door and to repaint both the door and the mirror side. So i msg this Mr Terry Kee. At first he juz said it's very expensive but as we continue to discuss, he insisted tat I was the one who is wrong!! He said he was driving st8 while looking for a carpark on his left.. in other word, he is driving st8 while concentrating on the left side for car park!!! and claimed that he was not in the wrong!!! Talk about being irresponsible!! And the worst thing is he plead w me to pay him back his RM60.

Sigh, my poor car...guess i need to be car-less for awhile soon...juz duno when. It will take 3 days to repaint my car! How to survive without car for 3 days?? :(